Thoughts

I was dying to know you, dying to feel your kiss melt in mine. I was dying to know all your thoughts, dying to throw away our distance, dying to see a smile on your face. But now I've lost you and here I am again...writing at the exact place where we first met, lost not knowing if I should feel, think, or forget, because I still love you. Tell me what brought us here? I don't want this melancholy sensation anymore. God help me understand why I can't sleep at night, why the only taste in my mouth is that of nicotine. Perhaps Cupid made a mistake...I always thought that you and I had our own fairy tale, but today I realized that not all come with a happy ending. Like our song said, "close my eyes..." This time to forget the story of our unsolved mystery. What should I tell my heart, it's not easy to be left in despair. My friend forgive me...for being jealous and not understanding. Maybe one day you can sit down and tell me what she is like and how you fell in love.

-nora

Today

Today I left...
Today I left wanting to stay..
Today I packed away memories of you, memories of us, pictures, and our song
Today I left..
Hand in hand with my loneliness
Losing a love..Gaining a friendship
Today I left intoxicated by our conversation and my tears
Realizing how transparent you are in my eyes, because I know you so well
Today I left..
Leaving you with your routine of Weds day nights out and morning walks with you dog
Every so often a hot tub that invites over the company of one or more
Today I tried to have a moment alone, but I couldn't smoke away the thoughts of you
Today I left..
In search of someone else..
Today I was with him and saw you

-nora